do i?
i was running and running and running…he wanted to talk to me about something he’s kept all these time but i didnt wanna talk…he was asking me to remove my shoes first o_O;; but i refused, hence, all the running…he had help with lots of people to catch me…i saw a church and heard that a mass was going on so i went inside…this gave me some time off from all the running…whew! talk about sanctuary! but when the mass ended the lady behind me texted him and so im off and ran again…after all the twists and turns i find myself on top of our roof in the province….i can hear footsteps from below trying to get their way to where i am….i was hoping beyond hope that they dont find me…i didnt want to talk to him…not now…not ever…i dun wanna hear what he had to say for i dun wanna get burned once more….they’re about to reach where i am…i was panicking….then all of a sudden i saw him looking through me…it is as if he cant see me and that im invisible…then all those people helping him where there and they too cant seem to see me o_O they all turned their backs and went downstairs…he was the last to leave…he gave one last glance and said in a soft voice "i love you…"
a tear came down my cheek…i cant believe what i heard…really weird…then i whispred " i love you too…" ….
BUT he didnt hear me… ;_;
- THE END -
i havent thought of him for the longest time but why suddenly pop into my subconscious?! i didnt want to talk to him nor hear what he had to say…i was afraid that it might be too painful to handle… i think the talk he wanted to have was about his identity…how i wish we really had that talk eons ago…i reckon, it will clear the air between the two of us…if only he did tell me the truth…he thinks so low of me that maybe he thought i wouldnt understand his reasons….<sighs> oh well…
maybe the dream was partly due to the fact that my body was dead beat yesterday and no positive result came out from all the experiments i did….
what bugs me the most is the last part, i’d rather think otherwise but do i really still feel the same way?!
